I report that I had a relapse last night, as usual prompted by demon alcohol. On the bright side, I feel quite sick because of it today--and, yes, I do know it's the cigarettes that are responsible--and my throat is killing me. When I quit in 1989, what happened was that each time I backslid, I'd get sicker because of it, till finally I just couldn't touch the things anymore. Though I would prefer never to smoke a cigarette again, I would settle happily for a repeat of this pattern this time around. Since the circumstances that caused me to start smoking again after suffering no inclination to touch the things for eleven years are unlikely to recur, I could even hope that this quitting will be my last.