While I haven't slept for 36 hours, I am seeing myself more clearly than I have in years.
I don't like what I see.
I've been shallow, selfish, egotistical, rude, self-centered, arrogant, pushy, domineering. inconsiderate, cold, and not a team player. In essence A jerk!
I need to get sober so I can see myself this clearly without the help of others.
I apologize to all of you for my behavior. Particularly: Mike, Tom, Dave, Hugman, Sarah, Bonnie, Bob and anyone else I may have hurt, insulted, slighted, mocked (this is making me sick to my stomach). For a guy who claims to care about the truth, I sucked at seeing it in myself, until now.
I won't be bothering you anymore. I have a lot of soul-searching, hard work and growing up to do.
I humbly ask all of you for your forgiveness.
I want to express my gratitude to all of you for snapping my eyes open.
Once again, I am sorry for what I did in this beautiful community.
I going to do my best to make amends.
Forgive me.